Random Musing at 2 AM

I tend to have very obsessive and intense friendships, almost like a crush, but obviously minus the sexual aspects. I tend to become intensely fascinated by people and want to know everything about them. There are good things and bad things about such friendships, but for better and for worse I keep on having them.

I wonder if I'm in that position with some of the people in my section now, people I see day in and day out and have now become an integral part of my social life. There's nothing inherently wrong with it, except that, as with all addictions and obsessions, they tend to skew your perspective and also exclude other worthwhile things in life. So I should be careful.

But I really do like our section; and I really do love law school so far. I'm filled with sadness whenever I think about how the first semester is nearly over (only one week left!).

I have heard that once exams are taken and grades come out, we'll never have the same unfettered carefree interactions that we are having this semester. By then the school will have ranked and classified us, and all our social interactions will be colored by that knowledge of who's "better" and who's "worse". We'll have lost our innocence a little bit. I do not look forward to this. I want us to be one big happy family just like now...