10/19/2005

Ultra random thoughts

I must have been really bored on the way from school to home today, because I started counting how many people, from when I can remember to now, that I have had a crush on.

I'm talking about those people whom I've spent at least a few days agonizing over, obsessing about, who had a significant impact on my quality of life in some way, who made life either more interesting or more miserable, or both. In other words, those people who made an emotional dent in me, who are not necessarily the same people with whom I had relationships. The duration of the "crush" could be as long as several years or as short as a few days.

So I have had 29 crushes in my whole life; the first one was when I was in second grade, on a little boy who was a neighbor of mine and who was in my class in school. Alas, he didn't reciprocate.

More than a few of these people are my classmates or colleagues. Several of these people are authority figures. 11 of them never had an inkling about my crush. A few of these crushes led to relationships. A few of these crushes led to rejections. Sniff.

Why did I think of this? I have no idea. Perhaps it's the delirium that always happens after 3 classes one after another. Wednesdays are my worst days in the week.

If you are ever wondering who those people are, email me and perhaps I will reveal a name or two. :)

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