And miles to go before I sleep

I'm a little sad tonight, for a lot of different reasons. I'm thinking a lot about my life, my career, my relationships, this summer and beyond, and where all this is going. I am feeling a great deal of uncertainty, and I'm wondering whether I'm doing the right things and taking the right level of risks and doing what's best for my life.

For instance, should I, perhaps, not even work for any firm at all and just do writing all summer long? Would that provide me with the right amount of financial reward, social relationships, and an expansion of my horizons?

I went to another one of those interminable firm dinners tonight. While the food was very nice, the idea of having to do this all summer long, no matter how fancy the restaurant is, does not appeal to me at all. I may have just been tired, but I also had the misfortune of being seated right next to the hiring partner, who never stopped for one moment selling the firm. He was a very nice man, and clearly smart and successful, but the entire dinner was so boring as a result.

I am also confused and uncertain because of events of a more personal nature, and hope that I did the right thing. I have been thinking a lot about what the "right" thing is for me lately, and what the criteria are and how can one ever tell. I don't think I have had this much angst and self-reflection since I was last a teenager, a not insignificant number of years ago. :)