Tragedy

Well, as of last night, the relationship between Boyfriend and me appears to be over. Even though I was the one who instigated this, it was not any less painful. We talked for many hours, then Boyfriend packed up and drove back to N-Town in the middle of the night. I suspect that seeing him gathering his stuff around my apartment will be the most terrible and haunting memory I will have for quite a while.

I spent today disoriented, alternately grieving and numb, and exhausted. (And appropriately, today it was rainy and gloomy all day, and I hardly went outside.)

It's going to take me a long time to get over this.